Mr. Emotionally Abusive | misskookie's Blog

“Delete my number, kill yourself and go to hell. :)” That’s what he told me; inclusive of the smiley face.
‘He’ is some guy who lives in my nieghbourhood. We’ve been spending a lot of time together the past month of so, and the friendship was slowly developing into something more. We kissed for the first time on Monday. So how did it go from that to him proclaiming his wishes for my demise? You wouldn’t even believe it.
I was watching something on his laptop and it was in a different language; I could only make out bits and pieces. I asked him to translate, he refused. I asked him again, he refused. I told him to stop being so stubborn and asked him to translate. To which he replied that I should just listen, think it over and I’ll understand. So by this time I’m pretty frustrated. That is a really dumb thing to say. So I yelled at him and told him just that. Seriously, if I don’t know the language then how is thinking it over going to help me understand it!!??
He got really mad that I yelled and he didn’t speak to me again. I left soon after, thinking he was totally overreacting. When I got home, I realized how I disrespected him, called him and apologized. But I still wasn’t satisfied. I wanted to apologize properly; face to face. So I called him and asked him to step outside his house so we could talk. At which point he said that he has no time for me and I should go to hell.
No one has ever told me that before. I was seething, seeing red. But after I thought about, I knew that I would not be satisfied until I made things right on my part. So I wrote a note apologizing and admitting my mistake, and I told him that after what he said there’s no way we could be friends again. He replied by thanking me for ruining his day, saying he was glad that I was out of his life and the aforementioned “Delete my number, kill yourself and go to hell. :)”. That’s it. Out of nowhere.
Now seriously, I have to ask. What is wrong with people these days? How do you tell someone to kill themselves, even adding a smiley face at the end. Think about it, how would you feel if that person did just that? The guilt would haunt you for the rest of your life. By telling someone to kill themselves, you’re essentially saying that they do not deserve to live. How dare you give yourself the authority to play out God and decide who deserves life and who doesn’t?
If I was the woman I was a year ago, I would’ve blamed this all on myself. And no doubt his words would have kept me up at night. But now I’m smart enough to know that this was his problem. I may have made a mistake but I felt remorse and I really tried to make amends. He didn’t want me to kill myself, the sole purpose of that text was to hurt me as much as possible. That says so much about him. If this is how he reacts over a simple argument, I don’t want to know what would happen if we ever had a real fight. He’s emotionally abusive and I’m really glad that I found out this early.
The funny thing is I forgive him. Getting closer to God has made it easier to just let things go and keep on moving. I just can’t believe he turned out to be this crazy, he always seemed so sweet.
I’ll leave you with a quote that I’ve always loved: I thought that you were my knight in shining armor but you were just a jerk in tin foil.